womans-ruin:
Don’t really have many photos from this time for a number of reasons (the main one being that I got my phone taken off me for six months) but the rant I was gonna have was the fucking awful counselling I received when I was ill. I lost 4 stone in a really short space of time, but because I started off from such a high weight (binge eating blah blah) I never really got down to a dangerous bmi. (My lowest being 17.4) My counselor constantly mentioned this and made me feel like I was “bad” at having a mental illness. She even once cut my session short because she had to shoot off to see an iller patient. Blah blah blah long story short I quit counselling prematurely because it wasn’t helping, helped myself but never really learnt healthy eating patterns (binged/purged whilst gaining weight at an excessive rate) but the help was NEVER there, I was left feeling useless and suicidal and never really recovered from it at all. Idk if it’s changed because it was a fair few years ago now. But I never really had anyone to turn to, and that’s such a failure from the NHS